friday august 24th
i sold out
the sky is a bewitching shade of too blue, and the whole world smells like fresh cut grass and flowers, and there's this hazy sunshine glowing and reflecting off the green green trees. and i sold out today, with my hair knotty and unbrushed and two old dresses on, i drove into reading with my lil bro and got tix for the festival. heh.
i knew i'd do it. but, hey, if the line up was better i'd be there for the whole weekend! i am going tomorrow, so i can catch weezer, frank black, and you will know us by the trail of dead, feeder, teenage fanclub and maybe mogwai. and i'll be out in the sunshine with my friends, which, after weeks of heartache, i think that's where i'm meant to be.
so i don't have a place to live next year just yet. so i sit on the pavements all pitted out and smoking reading books i've read before, just to pass the time. so i could spend a whole day in a field watching the sky. so i have dreams of being in a super cool band with my grrrl chums. i know i'm a fuck up, but i'm young and that's going to be my excuse for as long as possible.
every shop in reading today was playing travis songs, which made me smile to myself. they'll be onstage pretty soon, i guess. i still don't think that they are the alternative. today in hmv, a huge music shop in town, i saw all the old posters for reading festivals. the flaming lips were once first on the bill, pavement so often, and new order have actually headlined twice. huh. but i wish you could see what a beautiful evening it is. i am hopeful about the future. i am feeling good. i'm just sailing by on this one, hanging onto some good fortune.
i wish josh could be with me to see all the bands that are playing tomorrow, but i know we'll be together next year. sometimes things just don't go the way you plan them. we spoke for a time today on the telephone, twisting wires as i lay on my side cause it's the earth which i have known since birth. this is the fastest diaryland i have ever done. there is a new cute (at least i think it is, heh) picture of me and josh on my older page. it was a couple of hours after i'd got back from travelling california with mahri. i was sunburnt and drawn out, and under a jersey sky, me and josh talked on my blue bed about what we'd done during spring break.
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