monday, march 25th
can't calm down
i'm in the middle of a radio show right now. i'm burning 'tres bien' by le tigre onto a ceedee which will be played in the studio when all the deejays are sleeping or out doing something cool. so i'm sorta being immortalised.
first thing on my non-existent to-do list is gotta stop thinking about sad things. i should be the happiest ever, because i am in america with josh and i am hanging with old friends and not even studying all that much.
i keep feeling anxious, which really sucks, because it's been a month now and i'm getting tired of it already. i want to be able to have fun and live my life and stop worrying about the future and getting ready for goddamn panic attacks. i don't know. i'm trying and it's tough. and it shouldn't be tough because nothing has changed and my future is as bright as i'm gonna make it to be.
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